I posted a comment in my friend Michelle's post about the latest information released about our former pastor at church and how we are all dealing with this. I think I pretty much summed it up on her blog how I feel, but wanted to copy it to my own blog and share with you all.
In the midst of all of this craziness this was my prayer to God... "Thank you for bringing us to Revolution church and to have enough time there to able to get connect with the people of the church and see the goodness in the church, and re-connect with God in enough time before this tragedy happened." I'm pretty sure that if we had not had the opportunity to connect in all these areas OTHER than just Dave then we would have not come back after hearing what this man has done. I am so thankful for the timing in all of this for us. Revolution has changed me in so many wonderful ways. I can't imagine life without God anymore. I am touched by his blessings and grace and amazed by his workings I see throughout my life just in the past year. I look so forward to his plan in Revolution. I am trying to find compassion in all of this. I know it is what God wants. It is hard... so hard. This is beyond words, beyond comprehension. I feel like a sucker believing in him and prasing him to so many other people. I sat across from him every Wednesday night for the past few months in his Life Group and poured out my deepest thoughts, emotions... I was so scared, so intimidated to even begin a life group... let alone with my pastor who I looked up to so much... But I did it anyways. I wanted to take huge steps in my faith and trust the Lord. So I sit now... wondering... Who was that across from me. Who did I pour my heart and soul out to. Who did my husband confess his deepest emotions to... emotions that he has never confessed to anyone EVER! Such betrayal! I'll never understand.I look to the Lord for answers.
I need him to speak very loud and clear to me right now.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
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Sharon,
I'm not sure if we have actually met, but I know where you are coming from. I saw your comment on Michelle's blog and I wanted to comment.
My husband and I were in David's Life Group for a few years and accepted Christ through him. I understand what you and your husband are feeling. Don't believe the lie that satan is telling you about David. When you guys were confessing and sharing your feelings, God was there and using David.
God used David in many wonderful ways and we can't forget that. That is what satan wants us to do, forget the good things. We need to remember and celebrate those times and shut satan down.
I know how hurt you are. Rene and I are hurt and confused too. When I start to get sad, I just remember the good things that has happened, remember how God used the bad times to mold me and strengthen me, and look forward with excitement to see what He has planned for us.
I will be praying for you and your husband. Revolution is a strong community and we care about eachother. Just know you guys are not alone and we are all there for you.
Jenny Uribe
Sharon,
I have so enjoyed reading your blog this past year, and I have rejoiced with you and Garey as you have found a meaningful relationship in Jesus Christ. I am glad that God used David in your lives to bring about that change. When I heard the tragic news this weekend, I immediately thougth of a few families that may be impacted more than others, and yours was one of them. I am so glad that even though there is confusion and heartache, your relationship with Christ is still solid. You're in my prayers.
Lori, thank you for your kind words. I have found alot of comfort and strength this past year in the friends who have a solid, grounded, mature relationship with Christ. Your words mean more than you know. Thanks for taking the time to share. Hopefully someday I might see you at Revolution again. Take care. Sharon
Sharon,
Your blog about this topic brings me peace. To know that through all of this you see that it is God's church. I am so excited to see that You as well as Jenny Uribe can see past the hurt and betrayed feelings and see that God has a bigger plan. God is our Solid Truth and he will never leave us nor forsake us. Man will forever disappoint us. But our church's foundation is on God not man so we will continue to be strengthened by this. I love you all and I'm sorry for any pain that this has caused you. Your prayers are appreciated.
Love,
Lynnae
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